Potato Salad Drama
As I sprawl out in the backseat of Nick’s new Audi, I suddenly felt my stomach do another spinning back kick on my organs.
“Drive home quickly Chris, my stomach is killing me. I think grandma is losing her touch on the potato salad.”
“Okay, but lunch was fine. I think you are just recovering from your virus last week.”
Almost every Sunday Chris takes the train into Brooklyn to have grandma’s Sunday lunch. This week our youngest brother Kevin and I wanted to tag along so Chris drove in.
The flashing lights and sirens behind us were almost too much to bear after the Long Island silence settled in. Chris stepped out the car. Then the officers told us to get out.
To the boys: “Pop your trunk and put your hands on the hood. I need to check you out.”
Kevin turns to Chris, eyes wide and face gaunt with fear. But he quickly complies. Legs are spread and bodies bent over the hood of the car waiting to be patted by a stranger.
“Open the glove compartment.”
I clumsily open the glove compartment filled with maps, coupons, and receipts for pizza.
Had anything to drink? No sir.
Carrying a firearm? No
Drugs? No
Why are ya here? To get dinner.
Where ya comin’ from? Brooklyn.
Why were yous in Brooklyn? Grandma’s potato salad.
Do you live in LI? Yes we do.
What do ‘ya do? Graduated and working, High School, Middle School.
The light flashed on my face and the officer continued.
How do you know her? It’s my sister.
‘Ya sure? Yes.
Parents names? Kermit and Wichittra Card.
‘Ya sure? Yea.
Where do you live? Deer Park, NY 11729.
Apartment right? No, house.
So you own? Yes.
After re-checking my brother’s license, our trunk, my purse, their pockets and giving us breathalyzer tests, he told us to head straight home, no more stops.
We go home in silence. Kevin’s cracking voice breaks and asks: “why?”
Black.
After reading this piece to the prisoners Alonna asked how they felt about it. The prisoners reacted with comments like “typical day in a black man’s life” or “DWB driving while black”. When she asked if they could guess the author, they all seemed surprised when she disclosed my name.
Then the questions poured in: are you black? No, I am not. Did this really happen to you? Yes. Where in Brooklyn are you from again? Oh yeah that’s a tough place, you know you’re probably a lot tougher than any of us give you credit for. How long have you been family? 14 years.
One gentleman said to me “it is not the shade of your skin; it is the love in your heart.” And I couldn’t agree more. Whether I think of my Thai family, my English/Canadian roots or my black family I know that there is love and acceptance. This conversation about home, race and family love was on the lighter side.
Weeks later when we approached the idea of race and cliques at Syracuse University they described similar scenes of allegiances and alliances. The Whites hung with whites, and Asians sided with Asians. After spending weeks tutoring and talking to these men I expected no less honesty and clarity into the human social condition. It is when we are faced with new environments, self-preservation and security (whether social or physical) that we ally and find safety in numbers.
When these men spoke to me they now knew that I had some insight to their world, to the environment they had to live through and their struggles as men of color. I began to think about the boys in my elementary school P.S 137 and how many of them are at a four year university. I am lucky to be on the other side of the cement walls blogging.
Race and racism is alive in society, whether it is in SU or Auburn Prison. People find security in gangs and groups. They have no choice because once you come into the system you are sorted and claimed by those that identify with you. Who are you to deny their protection? Who are you to deny the benefits of the group? And who are you to stray and make your own way? It’s a rough fragmented world we live in, behind walls and on the quad.